The Trap

Am I failing?
Could do better: C minus
Not faithful enough
Not strong enough
Not enough
Weak
And I am tempted to end
my poem right here
because sometimes
that is all I feel
But...
There it is again: but
I cannot leave it there
For however faint it seems
There is hope
I have a hope
You are faithful
You are strong
You are enough
But I am still learning
how to let go
and let you.
So that your truth
your promises
might be realised
Experienced
Touched and enjoyed
And I often don't get it
And so I start again
Am I failing?
Could do better: C minus